WOMEN!!!!!!!!!!

first off..no offense to any of the women on this board or anywhere's else in the world, U all should know by now...what I have been going through...with my cycle and my girl...well everything was just fine...about a week in a half ago...then it turned sour..on christmas eve....so I was like...wow....u know..I am madly deeply in love with this girl...but she still doesn't care...I would tell her " I love you" and she would reply " ok, get over it" as of yesterday.....she finally declared that we are through, and how things weren't looking good for us....and that she didn't want me anymore..so I was like fine..but I told her that no one will ever treat her like I did..(princess) and her little girl as well..so yesterday after that...

Like I said....if u all go back and look at my earlier posts...u all will know the full story..so....back to the point..I am in my 6th week of my cycle of 500mg of test a week and 400mg of eq a week and 30mg of dbol the first 4 weeks...I was so.....mad.......yesterday...I said " Fuck that Bitch" so I was saving some special pills for my next cycle...but I didn't care....and I still don't so I took 1 of my BL windrols(40mg of anadrol, and 20mg of winny) so it's cool....I took 1..and holy shit...I had a very intense workout..it was unreal...the strength the power..the pump..it was awesome...I am going to run these for the next 4 weeks....and then I will start my clomid afterwards...but guys..I am sorry..don't mean to run it in the ground..but it the earlier post..u could see...what I am going through...I have been through the ringer...I have bent over backwards for this girl and got nothing in return...my family had racked up about 15 presents for her little girl..and my family thought we would all get married but now that's not the pooper..oh well thanks once again guys and girls...I will keep everyone updated.....

-Viper

Man that sucks, sorry to hear about that.

I have NEVER been able to turn a relationship around once it got that bad. You will not forget the cold words she said to you.

I don't like to give advice in this area, but you need to let this one go and move on. It is very obvious.

There are some really cool and honest women out there. Go find one.

Letting go of a woman we love is one of the hardest things we have to do, but it has to be done. She will not respect you anyway if you keep grovelling (spelling).

I hate to see a bro go through this. Good luck with it.

Viper....

You're not running anything into the ground. If you want to vent, go ahead, sometimes it helps and you know your Bro's here care about you.
I can understand what you are going through. I have been in a personal hell for the past year over the breakup of my second marriage. I know how rotten it feels, the lonliness and depresion and despair. Just try to have something in your life that helps on some level. For me it was just working on myself and going to the gym. That made me feel better about myself and it is something that no one can take away from you. maybe it will be something else for you, but try to find something, whatever it is. It won't cure things totally or fix you're relationship necessarily, but it can help you a little, and that's important.
Keep strong Brother. You never know what will come your way in life. I truely thought I might just die of a broken heart, thats how it felt at times. But you know what? I just last week called a girl I knew ages ago and hadn't seen for years. We were friends but I always felt something for her, I just didn't know how she felt about me. Now we are going to spend a long weekend together and see where it takes us. Two weeks ago I would never have imagined feeling good again, but everything is turning around now. My point I guess is that just when things seem to be hopeless, it can change and someone will grab your heart. I hope you are able to get through this and find some peace in your soul soon, and some wonderful caring girl will come into your life and really show you how it feels to be loved and cared about.
Good luck, and take care Viper. I wish there were easier answers, but you have some difficult stuff to work through for a while. Don't give up, and...do NOT go quietly into the night.

thanks to all, it really does mean a lot to have everyone here for me...Its hard because in order to get to my workplace, I have to pass by her house everyday....because it's on the main highway, I mean u can't miss it...it's just that I finally hit rock bottom I think, and it has torn me apart...and the first time we went through all of this crap...I took her back, but now it's like she is walking all over me and making me like it...and that's sad...because u take a lot of abuse, when u are the only one loving..and I do love her...but some how some way..I just know deep down inside..that she feels like she is making a mistake, I could be wrong, but I know one thing is for sure...
I am not giving up on my self, I know that I have a lot to look forward to...but u are right badger....it's like you are going to die from a broken heart, this girl had it all..and now I don't have her..and that sucks...but u know what...some day soon I hope she see's me and she realizes that she messed up....I know it want happen over night or a month...but I think eventually she will....since I took good care of her and her little girl, I feel really bad for her, she will be 4 next month the 18th..I dont know whats going to happen, she did invite me to her b-day party at Chucky Chesse, but what do u do...u know? oh well..I am hoping that I will blow the F### up...by then..with these windrols, and the test and EQ!!! and hopefully she will think oh my god!!! oh well thanks again....I will be replying back to this post... u bro's and girls here are my family thank you!! from the bottom of my heart!!!

oh well..I am hoping that I will blow the F### up...by then..with these windrols, and the test and EQ!!! and hopefully she will think oh my god!!! oh well thanks again...

I hope she thinks "oh my god, I could have had him but I threw it away and now he's with someone who won't shit on him like I did, so there's no chance"
belive me, I went on for a long time hoping she would see she made a mistake. She would even tell me how much she liked me as a person and stuff like that. kept me hoping. Her family all likes me a lot. My ex-father in law just sent me a cd with my deceased mother in law's favorite songs on it. keep your hopes a while if it helps, but try to remember that if it doesn't happen, there is someone out there who is lonely too and will be good to you. Probably a much better person for you than this one. I know that might sound impossible right now, but it isn't, trust me. Just hang in there and give yourself a chance... it'll come.

i can never understand woman they are a weird species

well bros one day at a time I guess...but I didn't even call her yesterday or e-mail her....I went into the gym...and blasted myself...for over an hour...and a half, doing back, triceps, and shoulders!!!

Fuck her, forget about it. Sounds easy but is tough. Go to the B-party and be nice have fun with the kid, it's not her fauly mommy's an ass. Be nice then walk away. Think about it this way, you put all that you could into it, so you did your part. With her walking away it's now her loss not yours, you tried hard and that's all you can do. May turn out to be a blessing.

viper, sorry to hear this. Nothing is worse than being in a relationship where you are the only one that cares. Some of the things they can say hurt so bad because you still love and never give up on the relationship working.I wish i could tell you to say 'fuck her", but i was in your shoes with my wife and finnaly she decided to stay.I still love her and we get along great, but i can tell you that the things they did and said hurt so bad they will never leave your head. Move on and find someone that deserves you and save yourself from the bad memories.

Terribly sorry to hear that viper. JUst remember, there is a better person out there for you, and eventually you will run into this person. Always try to keep yourself occupied and surrounded by supportive people, so that you don't think about her so much. Time heals wounds best.

thanks armagedon....that really meant a lot...thanks to CE as well....I am trying to move on...congrats to you pigmeat...on staying with your wife..very cool...and I wish u the best of luck....Poopoo..I am trying to stay postivie..I have been hanging out with my friends and busting my a$$ in the gym..trying to get bigger and bigger..and focus on me....I still have not called her or e-mailed her..and I am very proud of myself...THings have been looking up...it's getting a little bit easier everyday...I try to stay around some of my friends and family....to keep my mind off of her and stuff...and also just trying to do anything right now...I am eating my a$$ off...trying to up my calories and protein.....and who knows..I even came in on my off day yesterday just to work for the extra money....hopefully the first check in January...will be the next cycle for me......thanks once again to all of you.....I really do appreciate everything u all have done for me.....if anything else happnes I will keep you all updated...thanks for the replies it really helps me boost up my self confidence!!!

Sometimes in life u can only depend on yourself.... Sorry bro......

Remember keep ya head up, good things will happen in time.

I'm sorry to hear that bro but you are doing the right thing by not calling her. You kissed her ass once and she knows it now so don't call her or nothing and go out and do things. She will start wondering what your doing and it will drive her crazy. Just don't give in. She is probably like, oh he will call me. (Don't do it) This is just my .02 and some paste experience I went through.

Left heard and grow!!!!!!

thanks bigpump and mb.....really means a lot..u are right I did kiss her ass....more than once...and I think she actually believes I will call her....it's hard, but trust me....I am doing everything in my power not to.....but I dont' want to kiss her ass..anymore...I still love her...true I know those feelings are not going to go away over night or in a week......but I know time will heal all things...
But this girl really screwed me over...I am in total love with this girl, but I am starting to realize that it's a 2 way street.....and u can't make somebody love you that's for sure...I found that out the hard way...oh well...thanks once again for all of your support!!!

Viper.. take care Bro. You will get thru this and it will pass and you will meet someone that will take away all the pain and give you joy again. Just hold your head up and keep working on yourself. She will regret it.

ZZZOOM

I hope so guys.....I will continue to push forward....and hope things will get better....I have got the mind set to focus 100% on me...and to better myself...and I am now looking to extend my cycle to about 14 weeks, I am hoping...and then taking March off and jumping back on....along with the latter part of febuary....so that will give me sufficient time off..don't know yet.... depends on the money situation...Going to blast my self....for the next month or so...and will give 110%.....thanks once again to all of you for keeping my spirits up!!

well bro's I did it..I broke down and called her....however I had a good reason....because my brother's girlfriend bought her and her little girl a present and so I called her this morning and asked If I could stop by and drop them off and she said "Sure" we got there, and things got interesting, however she wants me to come over once or twice a week just to F###............what's up? oh well guys just thought I would share!! thanks again bros!!

Don't let her use you like that. You'll just keep on getting hurt. Good luck bro.

well at least it would be some good pussy!!!