Deca Dick, becoming suicidal. Please help.

Hi Guys,

I am extremely new to steroids. I took Testerone Enanthate 250mg and Nandrolone Decanoate 200mg, twice a week for 10weeks. On the recommendation of a friend of mine. I should have researched properly, I didnt. For this I am paying the consequences. My cycle ended on the 26th of June 2014. I took Clomiphene Citrate 50mg as my on PCT. 2 tablets a day for the first week then 1 tablet a day for the second week. My symptoms started about 2weeks ago. I found that my penis is constantly flaccid, and my mind finds it hard to get aroused. I can watch porn and jerk off and still get off but my penis doesnt go fully hard. Sometimes on good days (only 3 times in the last month) I have become aroused and my penis has become really hard but its like a mental battle to not think about it and just be in the moment. This doesnt help that my girlfriend and I stopped seeing each other a week before all this stuff for unrelated reasons, so I havent had the opportunity to see how I perform with a real partner. I am scared, I have called the suicide hotline twice now. I dont know what to do. My friend has told me to get Daspartic Acid which I take 3 times the regular dose of I started 3 days ago. He will also get me more HCG and Clomid. Im in Sydney Australia, does anyone know a doctor who understands this problem well enough to help me, I spoke to my GP and she told me to wait 3-4weeks before getting my bloods done and then going from there. I just need some help.

Thank you.

First of of welcome to mc bro , and to suggest anything before blood works won't be a good idea let's wait for blood work as it would clear up the situation much better to give advice but I would still bump it to others who have faced such a problem , and my advice for others newbies would be when ever doing first cycle keep it simple and use test only with an ai , hang tight bro hope all works out for u mate

They don't call it Deca-Dick for no reason. Deca hangs around a long time after you stop using it, its effects even longer. It affects everyone differently, you may do well to run your test longer after you stop the deca say maybe another 3 weeks then pct. With HCG, and Nolvadex. Also if it hits you this hard you may want to use HCG during your cycle.
Your lack of sex drive is due to low/No testosterone, once that returns so will the sex drive and all that comes with it. If you have some dbol tabs switch to those one 10mg tab in the am, hits you fast short acting in the system. Plus it will increase your mood, but this has to be done in the am to try and fool the body to think its natural. But youll still need some PCT. But just to get you back fast, id be looking for some dbol asap.
Hope its gets easier....... I mean Harder soon.

Hi Akn and Moneywrench thank you for your replies. I have decided to get the HCG and Clomid and with monkeywrench's advice plus a fair bit of reading myself the nolvadex aswell.

HCG and Clomid increase natural test production and Nolvadex is an anti estrogen product. I just wanted to clarify, I read up on these at steroid.com

I feel that I cant sit around for 4 weeks in this state I need to focus on mending my body. Maybe the lack of test is making me depressed aswell, so its making things worse. If I increase my test, then atleast I might have more confidence with my life, and if i do have erectile dysfunction I can deal with that in a better mind set.

Thanks again. If anyone else has had any positive outcomes could you please share and help me put my mind at ease.

Thank you for your posts. I have decided to get the HCG and Clomid with additional Nolvadex. HCG and Clomid increase your natural test production, While Nolvadex is an anti estrogen drug right? I can't sit around for the next 4 weeks and just be depressed all the time. At the very least hopefully this give me more testosterone and confidence comes back to its usual self. If I still have erectile dysfunction then I can try to deal with that from there.

If anyone has had deca dick and maybe a positive outcome I would love to hear some news that would lift my spirits a bit.

Kind Regards

Welcome 2 MC. Deca does, as Monkey said, linger... Clomid also tends to cause depression in so as well as ED SERMs can effect libido & mental health. I'm curious to know if u used any prolactin inhibitors &/Or anti-estrogens as prolactin & estrogen can have those effects as well. If not I strongly recommend the use of Aqua-Dex or Exemastane as high estrogen can effect you negatively. Bloods will tell so definitively get them promptly.
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</br> Get bloods done above all else and if u have high estrogen or low t we can further assist u, but as no one can determine the cause w/o medical evidence all answers are merely circumstantial & self-medication can greatly exacerbate the side effects. Better safe than sorry bro.

Ok So bloods then we will see. Ill go get bloods done this week.

welcome to MC, looks like these guys have your questions sorted out well, so ill just say welcome brutha!

Welcome to the MC
of course get blood work done. Some guys can handle the doseage that you took others don't some can run deca = test some run high test low deca which is what I have to do when I take deca or my libido is gone I've had deca dick before I only used nolva and clomid and even then it took like a month after to be able to go again. But like these guys have mentioned hcg is what helps alot once it kicks in i felt my sex drive come back and once I finished my pct this time with hcg I had no problems.

Welcome to the board. And listen to Monkey.

get some Cialis until the test returns to normal

dorian123 said:

get some Cialis until the test returns to normal

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agreed as long as ur sex drive is still there then cialis or viagra should work as said above

Sdude welcome to MC as you can see this it he spot to gather any info you need. ihope all works out for you and just a reminder things will get better just hold in there.
Goodluck bro

You will over come this. Listen to your MC brothers who have tons of experience, and welcome aboard....

Seems like you're getting some good advice on the deca dick issue' this is why MC is the best Fourm out there, real guys, real honest advice.
on the suicidal thoughts bro, find a support group or some trusted friends in your close circle to talk things through. If you're religious then talk to someone at your church or hell talk to a crisis counselor but don't do it alone. I just recently lost a real good friend and MC member here to suicide and I can tell you the ripple effect it still has today is amazing. It's a very selfish act and one that will effect more people in your life than you will know. SuIcde is a very dark place to go in ones head and the mind is a very powerful enemy if you let it. People do care, people do love you, lIfe iS worth liviNg for, you might not see it today or tomorrow but it is worth it. These thoughts aren't to be taken lightly, it can consume ones thoughts and action, please just talk it out with someone.

Welcome to MC. I have had some of the same issues you are dealing with brother. Deca Dick as well as suicidal thoughts, etc. It sucks to say the least. As corny as it sounds, make it through one day. Then, make it through another. The days do add up and before you know it, both your dick and your normal thoughts will return. I make a joke to my gym friends from time to time when they start talking about PCT and such. I'm on for life now, but the last time I came off for PCT, I felt just like you are now. I just wanted to rent a chic movie, eat a box of chocolates and shoot myself. That was almost 2 years ago and I'm still here buddy. Dick works fine. If you wait it out, it'll all come back. If you are impatient like myself, Monkey has a good suggestion with the 10mg Dbol in the morning. Although, I prefer 20mg. LOL... And, Cialis is a miracle worker my friend. My dick is so hard when taking that stuff that I feel like it could hammer in nails. Hang in ther buddy...

Hi Guys, and thank you for your support. I was taking the dspartic acid on triple dose since I have posted the first message. I will get blood taken tomorrow as end of month is too hard to take time off for a sales guy. That said i have been speaking to my brother and I finally trusted him with this. He is super supportive and went ahead and got me HCG anyway. I have been feeling alot better my sex drive is not as high as it was but at least I get properly aroused now. My mind is alot more at ease as I seem to be improving. Thank you tons for your support it really helped me over the past few days. I just felt kinda helpless.

Glad you're starting to feel better, at least mentally. As others have stated, deca sticks around a long time and those effects can linger.

I got some bunk test once and was running it with very good deca. About three weeks in, you can imagine my surprise when shit went bad and I ended up right where you are.

It took 3 months to get it sorted out, but it did eventually get sorted out.

Take heart, you know what the basic problem is, or at least the cause, and it will pass.

this is why I'm not completely sold on the newer cycles-IE high deca low test

as you mentioned what if the test was fake or underdosed?

dorian123 said:

this is why I'm not completely sold on the newer cycles-IE high deca low test

as you mentioned what if the test was fake or underdosed?

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Agreed. High test is my base for everything, including life.