BB competing is the toughest of all Sports

[Big JC]

I have to just go on a rant here, but I figured since my wife and friends do not like to listen to this shit, my brothers in iron here would. I plan on making my comeback next April at the NPC CT State Champ. which is a national qualifier. I used to compete in my teens and early twenties and I gave the gym up to start my businesses, buy a home, get some toys, get married, have children, and live life bored like all others in that perdiciment. (although the kids are great)

Anyway, between the dieting, hard training, strained and pulled muscles, almost dying from overdosed UG gear, (clen) and now a bout with cellulitis, an infection from unsterile gear, this is starting to get to me. I am cranky, aggravated, and sore as hell. I train alone, which makes it a little more diff also. I can see the light at the end of the tunnel, but right now, I do not know if I can make it out of that stupid tunnel. I guess I am just being a pansy ass now, but some support can keep me on track, as depression is now setting in. Thanks for all you can do guys, also Nuk, and Chris 250, a big thanks to you guys for keeping us updated by posting pics. It keeps us all motivated, and we are routing for you both.

Big JC

 

[Presser]

Been there done that bro! lol, all of it all the way down to the cullulitus, Hell I was hospatilized for a week from bad gear last year or so ago and had my ass cut open and drained and they couldnt get my fever under 102 for nearly a week, but even after all that bs their is nothing and i mean nothing that could or would make me stop bbing, i think ur just going through a bout of depression as we all do and im not talking about some clinical depression where u need meds either, i mean just second guessing urself type of shit! im 35 yrs old and in best shape of my life other then my knee issue,lol. So keep ur eye on the prize brutha! Do that show ur talking about! most of here aint going pro and we know this but were in it for the love of it and for me LONGEVITY IS WHAT ITS ALL ABOUT

 

[Big JC]

Press, thanks bro. Yea you are right. I am getting burnt out for sure. But I will keep me eye on the goal. In my past competing days, it was all about winning. And even though I am like most of you, a very hardcore dedicated athlete with being number 1, on my mind. I am looking at this show different than years past. I will just do my best, and usually my best is good enough for the prize, but what I am saying is that this show is for "ME". I will be competing against friends that I would like to beat, but I am not going to feel the pressure of other competitors this go round. Its for my own mental well being, that I can do this one more time. Just like my old drag race days..... I will run with what I brung!!! LOL

Big JC

 

[Presser]

Press, thanks bro. Yea you are right. I am getting burnt out for sure. But I will keep me eye on the goal. In my past competing days, it was all about winning. And even though I am like most of you, a very hardcore dedicated athlete with being number 1, on my mind. I am looking at this show different than years past. I will just do my best, and usually my best is good enough for the prize, but what I am saying is that this show is for "ME". I will be competing against friends that I would like to beat, but I am not going to feel the pressure of other competitors this go round. Its for my own mental well being, that I can do this one more time. Just like my old drag race days..... I will run with what I brung!!! LOL

Big JC

there ya go brutha! Do it for you as i always say its all reletive anyways, as long as you bring ur (A) game and always try to out do your prior self , then ur moving in the right direction!

 

[Chris250]

Big JC,

Hey bro, you know it gets tough...And with a family !!! Man, that is even harder...I have Sarah and my gracey, plus my step daughter Liz...And I love those girls to dealth and would do anything for them...But, if you got a dream, and want something mroe out of life then just going to work and coming home..Then bro, you gotta do this...!!! Make it happen !!! Go for your dreams, and make everyworkout like its your last one !!! Plus, yourself harder than ever..But remember who is in your corner to, when your having a bad day, and never take it out on the kids or wife..Becasue they are reason why you can do this now !!! BELEIVE IT AND IT WILL HAPPEN !!!

I WISH YOU THE BEST AND IF YOU NEED ANYTHING PM ME !!!

CHRIS

 

[Big JC]

BIG THANKS, Chris, I really appreciate that, it means alot. All this training is making me into an introvert. I am focused, and besides my job, and my family, every breathing second are thoughts about my body. You know what I am talking about. I can no longer hang with friends, and family parties are diff with all the pastries, sweets and food around. I dont drink, but my friends do, and when I dont drink, they give you balls about it. And forget about going out with my buddies, I dont know about you, but whenever I go out, I dress the part, and wear clothes that enhance my physique, and I get harrassed by assholes always wanting to knock the big guy down. There was a time when I liked trouble finding me, that is no longer the case, instead now I hide to avoid it all........

Big JC

 

[Chris250]

BIG THANKS, Chris, I really appreciate that, it means alot. All this training is making me into an introvert. I am focused, and besides my job, and my family, every breathing second are thoughts about my body. You know what I am talking about. I can no longer hang with friends, and family parties are diff with all the pastries, sweets and food around. I dont drink, but my friends do, and when I dont drink, they give you balls about it. And forget about going out with my buddies, I dont know about you, but whenever I go out, I dress the part, and wear clothes that enhance my physique, and I get harrassed by assholes always wanting to knock the big guy down. There was a time when I liked trouble finding me, that is no longer the case, instead now I hide to avoid it all........

Big JC

Big JC,

things out east are probably alot differnet than out here...I dont really get harrassed like you do...People just ask me tons of questions, and they actully do give me alot of respect...So I feel for ya...I actully have a pretty good support system here...With Sarah, she competes and is dieting right now to, and will diet all the way to Nationals with me so that is a good thing...Plus, family things are good to, because everyone grills chicken breast for Sarah and I or they know we wont go...LOL (J/K) ...No, but really its pretty good for us...People around us support what we do for the most part...So I feel for ya brother...But, just make the best of it, and if you ever need to talk, just PM me...

chris

 

[MdTNT]

Bro its not even about BBing being the toughest, its the dedication and detrmination it takes let alone the commitment one must give. Me, personally I could never imagine competing simply because I dont care much for crowds but, as you said....its for you adn all about you. We set goals in order to make our own self image better each time we achive those goals and then to replace them with newer goals....Head high, chin up and keep on keepin on! You have dedication and everythign else in the world it takes....if it makes you happy and feel fulfilled then keep at it.

Md-

 

[jtunderdog]

It is tough. Just to stay motivated when you have no workout partner is tough for me. I think the only thing that is even close dedication wise is maybe mma. They have to diet and cut and fight injuries constantly as well. Sounds like you may be a little depressed so I hope things start going your way soon. Good luck on the comeback. Just getting back onstage should give you lots of motivation to fight the fight again and again.