well, I've had better days...

Friday my mom had something like a stroke at work. She seems fine now, and is still in the hosp getting observation and tests done.
Just got off the phone with the gf, and she told me it wasn't working. Funny sometimes how they go from thinking you're the best thing that has ever happened to them, to just not interested. Wouldn't be such a drag, but I'm gullible enough to believe all the crap I hear in the beginning. Needless to say, I now won't be picking her up at the airport next week.
Lets see, what else... oh yeah, I finished my cycle a couple weeks ago. This is turning out to be one hella crash.


Must suck to be the horse I rode in on...

damn bro keep your head up your next cycle is just around the corner ! lol
thats what I keep telling myself !

All I can say is time heals bro. Nothing else that I could say would help. Women come and go, I've tried not to let them close enough to do any damage, but nature runs its course and we all get the short end of the stick in relationships sometimes. If you haven't loved and lost, you haven't loved, right?

badger, sorry to hear about your mother, I hope tests come out OK.....as for the GF, she's not worth your sadness, it's her loss bro. Just look forward to the next cycle, and all the girlies head's that'll turn when you stroll by big as shit....

man sorry to hear about your mom. Best of luck with the girlfriend.

Hope things turn around for you. Sorry to hear about your Mom.

That's really rough, and when it rains, it certainly pours, doesn't it? Hang in there, bro, things will definitely pick up!

Thanks guys. My mom seems to be doing fine, just waiting for the MRI, and then see what the doc says. Just have to wait and see.
As far as the GF goes, It'll take a while to sort that out. maybe one lesson I need to finally learn is not to trust another person to be sincere, just because they say they are. I think I put too much stock into meaning it when I commit to someone, and beleiving that they mean what they are saying too. I could save myself a lot of trouble if I didn't let them get close anymore, the end result would be the same, but I wouldn't feel so lousey when the deal goes down. I think that's my biggest mistake I make over and over.
Now my dilema is to decide by Friday if I want to go to a reunion this July. It is the people from the American school I went to in Argentina, where I met both my ex and the ex-gf when I was a kid. I doubt Christine will be there, I know my ex-wife will. A girl I dated then will also be there I've been told. I don't know if it would be uncomfortable to be around the ex again. Not that I think she has ever looked back and regretted divorcing me, and she won't be impressed with the 30lbs of muscle I've put on since I saw her a year and a half ago, so there's no expectations there. It might be nice to see some of the people I knew then and these only happen every 4 years. Either way, I think this would be the last one I'd think of attending. Not sure which way to go on that, but I think I need to do something to break up the routine right now so I don't just spiral down into a rut and get all depressed.
Hmmm, maybe a trip to Japan to see J69 is in order. Or the Phillipines. I've always thought some of the Oriental ladies are hot, in fact, my first wife was 1/2 Japanese.

Sounds like a plan, go enjoy life! Don't let prior relationship make you cynical, take them in stride. Good things happen, give it time.

Good luck Badgermoon, family is very important.....
gf´s come and go fast, you´ll see!

good to hear mom is doing better as far as the gf screw it you know there are more fish in the sea. The reunion get your freakin jacked up scuba diving ass there and walk in like you own the world and take a look at all the fat dumpy out of shape non succesfull people that you are not like bro. Don't think the ex wouln't notice the 30lbs of muscle they say it doesn't do anything for them but it's funny how they have to mention it LOL.

words of wisdom, by Eminem "But I do know one thing though, bitches they come they go....Saturday thru Sunday, Monday - Monday through Sunday, yo"

sorry to hear that life isnt so good for you, just keep your chin up and things will get better they always do....REMEMBER GOD does things for a reason....

my bro just married a japanese chick...dudes in heaven and these girls know how to treat a fella...most of them would do anything to become an american and live here...

Thanks for the encouragement. It means a lot to feel the support. Just another reason why this place is so adicting. I really feel like I have some great friends here.
I'm leaning toward going to the reunion like MBK suggested. Most of them went to college and are succesful, but I know in my mind, they could never dig up the balls to do what I do for a living. And, from what I remember from 8 years ago, they are all pretty sad looking, fat and soft. I hope I can keep the mass I've piled on lately. I'm losing the bf, but trying to spare as much muscle as I can. This might be a good motivator. Then again, it might backfire and really suck. Only one way to know for sure, and I'd hate to not go and regret it when the time comes. I have a free plane ticket I could use. At least if I see the ex there with someone new, it might get her out of my head. Who knows, might even hook up with someone for the weekend, stranger things have happened.
I need to do something, whatever it is. I don't want to go back to the dark place I was after my divorce.

Tell them badger's commin'... and he's bringing hell with him. LOL

thats what I like to hear bro. Takes a real set of balls to walk the red iron them wussies probally get wigged out cleaning their gutters out LOL.

Good to hear about your mother-As far as the GF-Do what makes YOU happy-Better to find out now than further on down the road my friend!

Glad to hear your moms ok,Hang in there bro it does get better
believe me i was rock bottom now iam on top of the world.anything i can do for ya Iam just a PM away GOOD LUCK....