Ever Wonder If It's Worth It?

I get down like this every month or so it seems. I look around and just take note of all I go through to try and achieve. I Eat 7 times a day-Mostly foods I don't enjoy. I spend a lot of money I could save. I put myself through rigorous workouts. I make sure I sleep a minmum of 8 hours. And this doesn't include the hormonal yo-yo those of us who choose to enhance ourselves go through. I always like to stop and take stock and make sure it is worth it.

For me it is not about Girls-or Impressing people. Actually that only makes it tougher. I am married so I try to avoid women like the plague-It is not good to test yourelf while on 800mg of test a week. I only work out in T's or longsleeves- I don't like people to notice to much change-plus if I expose my shoulders my joints hurt.

I do it because I have always needed something to compete in. To test myself-always. If I get complacent I become self loathing. I will never just watch TV-I am no good at golf-The Rugby team disbanded-So I test myself with Iron. It's nice that My body gets more "socially" attractive-but I don't do it for society. I do it for me.

So fuck you if my grass looks like shit-I was at the gym.

I mostly do it for myself. I know how I want to look and feel, and so I pursue that goal. I think it also gives me something to do, something that I alone can acheive for myself. Not having a lot else going for me right now, it is good to have this to focus on. besides, it is something that nobody can take from me, and the effects are always with me. The only bad part is the off time. Thats when I remember what I used to feel like before I was cycling.

Yeah it's worth it. It's easy to get complacent hanging out in the gym with the other hardbodys -- a place where most people are in respectable shape. I figure we're all in the top couple percent in our gyms -- whose members are in the top couple percent in the community. Out in the wide world people are fat, sloppy, and soft. When in doubt, go to any public place and watch the people go by -- soft, overweight, and lacking self-respect. That motivates me. Most of us don't worship at the iron church to pick up women -- most of the serious bros do it for themselves. But it is good to have the respect of men and women -- and you do get that.

"You have to do what others Won't, to Achieve what others Don't."

In my book anything that you have to work hard for to achive your goals, is def worth it. Cause the harder you struggeled to achive your goals the better your ganna feel when you do!

I know where you are coming from and I think we all ask that question from time to time............. but mow that fucking grass bro! You could lose a small child in your front yard :0