i gonna be away for a while

Dear guys,maybe i don't know most of you really well,but i do consider all of you a family,an ironfamily as my friend lord odin would say.
I grew up in a bad and degraded neigboroud and unfortunately started shooting heroin at 16,but at the same time i use to go to a boxing gym,and the coach saved my life,if he saw that i wasnt showing up for training for more than a couple of days he would had come with half of the gym to search for me,and many times when he found me high he they used to bet the shit out of me and all the other junkies.
Years went on and some year i never took drugs,or partied i was goping from home to the gym,other years were a mess i use to sleep on the street take a shitload of drugs,get arrested.
I won't tell you my whole story but i arrived at were i am now 27 years old with no job and a methadone addiction.I wake up in the morning,go drink my methadone,go to the gym and if i have the money shoot some poison in my vein.
I tought about suicide many time,but instead i decided to join this rehab center.
It's on the sea,we have to follow teraphy groups and work,and there is even a gym with free weights i can use.I wont be able to make phone calls or see people but i might be able in a few months to use the computer.
Feel free to write me emails i will love to get them,and please when some newby asks about painkillers or nubain give him my email i will tell him how really is,how this substance takes control of your life and creates emptynes around you.
i will miss you all,take care and be gratefull to the iron,the iron saved my life
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I too battled a methadone addiction. I wasn't in it alone though, thank GOD. I'll be the first to say that it completely controls your life. Though I wasn't on heroin, I managed to addict myself from someone's precription. 150mgs ED. No bullshit. It took me 2 months of going cold turkey (because I didn't have access to it anymore) to finally get over the withdrawals. Here I am 1 year later and I think of it everyday. Quiting smoking was f-ing EASY compared to the pills. I truely feel for you and wish you the best. Your never in it alone, there's always someone there for you.

Thanks for your share, I wish you the best on your trip. I look forward to your return.

Good luck Redox...you will be in my prayers! I look forward to seeing you back ASAP!

Good luck buddy and you will be in my prayers as well. We'll save a a seat for ya...

It takes a lot of heart to admit when you need help and it takes even more to make yourself go thru with it. Use that weight room every day! When you feel like you need those pills, hit the weights instead, then before you know it, you will be over that addiction. We will always be here for ya Bro, and we look forward to your return...

Take care of yourself and get well. Hope to see you back posting when you're ready.

I really admire your honesty and will to share something so personal with all of us. Good luck with recovery,I hope that you dont have that tough of a time with it. Meth is much more addictive than heroin,so stay strong,stay true,and remember you have family you can turn to for help and advice if you need it.

Good luck man, Its hard to kick but if you do your body will thank you with added strenth and performance

I wish you the best of luck with your setback. I hope to see you back here again in top shape. I sorry that you are going through all of this. take care of your self bro...

Best of luck friend. This touched me. I have a sister who was addicted to Oxy. It ruined her life.
A friend of mine got her a few (what they call) Methadone Biscuits. She takes about 1/2 biscuit everday. This keeps her from getting ill and also allows her to unction normally. She says shegets absolutely NO buzz at all, but she is able to function.
Is she going in the correct direction ? Will this help her stay off the Oxy ?

I love her, I want what is best. Help me out here guys.

redox, it's rare to see someone who will take these kinds of steps in their life. i applaud this man, there's going to be a seat for you here at MC when you get back bro, you can count on it.

i have a friend who was sent to rehab in new mexico halfway through our senior year in highschool. i remember talking to him about it and he said if he didn't have something routine in his life where he could unleash he would have gone insane. i think lifting there will help you a lot. it can be something you look forward to everyday, a staple in your life.

everyone makes mistakes, forget your past and focus on your future. GOOD LUCK BRO...YOU CAN DO IT!

up for some "knowledge" !! Any help appreciated

You have to do what you have to do Knowledge. The right thing to do would be rehab, of course. I've heard people saying methodone was harder to kick than heroin.

always remeber Bro.....

Read the bottom of the post Bro......"That which does not kill us makes us stronger".......Believe it and live it and have faith and you will always make it.....good luck bro.......if you couldn't do it bro you wouldn't be here right now.......so kickin it in the ass is all that's left and something tells me....you aint gonna have a problem doin it bro......as Tom Bodett says......we'll leave the light on for ya!

you are a brave man and i wish you nothing but the best. i feel you will beat your demons and come out of it the better man.

nine months since i posted this...and only today i have been able to read all your answers...well thanks guys for your kind words..first 3 or 4 months have been really hard..but now i feel like a million bucks..i am working in the terapeutical center that saved my life...helping people with problems like mine saving theyr lifes...i have been able to go to a gym near here for the last 4 months and i rented a new house on the sea and today i got a computer..i am back.....

thats fantastic bro, we all go through tough times, good to hear from ya again keep posting here and stay busy brutha!!

That's great bro. The addiction may always be with you, but it doesn't have to be you.

At 27 you still got a full life.

Great to have you back. Hang in there.