Addiction

saturn1

saturn1

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I know we are here as Bodybuilders and fitness enthusiast's but a prior thread addressed addiction to drug.

I myself was addicted to opiates. Press displayed his battle.

Addiction doesnt stop at drugs. Bodybuilding addicts, Sex adddicts, plastic surgery addicts. The list goes on.

I think this would be a good thread to share and maybe help explain triggers of addiction ...etc.

At one point my drug of choice was morphine and diluadid. Both I.V. and both highly addictive.

Describing the feeling on dilaudid was pure euphoria......life was fucking worth living. I didnt have a hard life at the time but the feeling I got from a shot was tremendous. It was better than sex. I didnt need a girlfriend because sex couldnt give me the feeling a shot did and it didnt need to be taken to the movies .

By my breif description you can see why I was hooked.

I quit cold turkey and experienced what I can only reffer to as hell on earth. Aches , pains, and intense craving.

Im glad im off. This was many, many years ago.
 
this is a good thread because it shows why its such a good idea to stay away from that shit. Gotta lot of buddies at home that abuse prescription drugs and I just don't get it.
 
Yea, I never understood addicts and would be harsh on them before I turned into one.

Then I understood that something that starts out recreational for a once in a while good time can be the biggest burden in your life.

Addiction now is being described as a chronic illness.......It's not cancer but to be classified as such would have implications of how hard it is to get off certain drugs.
 
Cyphon said:
I know we are here as Bodybuilders and fitness enthusiast's but a prior thread addressed addiction to drug.

I myself was addicted to opiates. Press displayed his battle.

Addiction doesnt stop at drugs. Bodybuilding addicts, Sex adddicts, plastic surgery addicts. The list goes on.

I think this would be a good thread to share and maybe help explain triggers of addiction ...etc.

At one point my drug of choice was morphine and diluadid. Both I.V. and both highly addictive.

Describing the feeling on dilaudid was pure euphoria......life was fucking worth living. I didnt have a hard life at the time but the feeling I got from a shot was tremendous. It was better than sex. I didnt need a girlfriend because sex couldnt give me the feeling a shot did and it didnt need to be taken to the movies .

By my breif description you can see why I was hooked.

I quit cold turkey and experienced what I can only reffer to as hell on earth. Aches , pains, and intense craving.

Im glad im off. This was many, many years ago.
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This describes my situation about 5 years ago bro. Im glad you were able to come out and say it. I did the same thing and quit cold turkey and it was hell on earth. Not the worth the 3 months of using that shit. STAY OFF DRUGS!!!
 
Cyphon said:
I know we are here as Bodybuilders and fitness enthusiast's but a prior thread addressed addiction to drug.

I myself was addicted to opiates. Press displayed his battle.

Addiction doesnt stop at drugs. Bodybuilding addicts, Sex adddicts, plastic surgery addicts. The list goes on.

I think this would be a good thread to share and maybe help explain triggers of addiction ...etc.

At one point my drug of choice was morphine and diluadid. Both I.V. and both highly addictive.

Describing the feeling on dilaudid was pure euphoria......life was fucking worth living. I didnt have a hard life at the time but the feeling I got from a shot was tremendous. It was better than sex. I didnt need a girlfriend because sex couldnt give me the feeling a shot did and it didnt need to be taken to the movies .

By my breif description you can see why I was hooked.

I quit cold turkey and experienced what I can only reffer to as hell on earth. Aches , pains, and intense craving.

Im glad im off. This was many, many years ago.
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i was just in th ER for back spasms in in my upper back. so bad i couldn breath, move or anything. they couldnt do anything for me except for pain. and they gave dilaudid, and man there isnt anything like that feeling of warmness that comes over you whole body the min it hits your blood. i can see how you would be addicted. glad you beat it bro!!
 
Guys, I would suggest you relate your experiences without romancing the drug. The reason i say this is because not everyone reading this thread is a recovered addict, many still struggle. Talk of warm euphoric feelings may trigger thoughts and feelings in some readers who are not ready to give it up yet. We don't want that. I think this is an excellent thread for everyone to share their struggles and their road to recovery. Remember recovery and abstinence are two different things. We are here to help those who struggle.

I would like to add that it takes a tremendous amount of courage to come o terms with a dependancy issue, chemical or other, and be able to speak of it so openly. So i commend you.


nvs
 
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i totally agree with what NVS just said. in light of that i'm gonna share an up close view of the dark side.
i was involved with a guy who had an addictive personality. he was a BB, did gear, talked up the lifestyle. i was friends with him before i started training myself and our friendshiop made it that much harder to see what i'm about to describe.
he also liked to shoot cocaine. havent seen him in a WHILE but i still come across a spoon with a chared bottom in my kitchen from time to time. he got to the point where he was running out of places to inject, would completely miss the vein so his hands/arms were puffed up like a cabbage patch dolls. I would hide the stuff, beg him to stop, sit on the couch crying and screaming for him to stop or get out of my place; all while seeing him try to find another spot on the back of his arm, top of his foot, calve, or, my personal favorite, the hollow between neck and collar bone. he never remembered me asking him to stop or leave. he was too high. he talked to things that werent there, all manner of stuff.
and he still had a house, job, life. this was just his dark under belly.
I even tried it, so i know the feeling first hand. but no feeling will EVER offset the ugliness of what i witnessed.

Legs
 
longlegs said:
i totally agree with what NVS just said. in light of that i'm gonna share an up close view of the dark side.
i was involved with a guy who had an addictive personality. he was a BB, did gear, talked up the lifestyle. i was friends with him before i started training myself and our friendshiop made it that much harder to see what i'm about to describe.
he also liked to shoot cocaine. havent seen him in a WHILE but i still come across a spoon with a chared bottom in my kitchen from time to time. he got to the point where he was running out of places to inject, would completely miss the vein so his hands/arms were puffed up like a cabbage patch dolls. I would hide the stuff, beg him to stop, sit on the couch crying and screaming for him to stop or get out of my place; all while seeing him try to find another spot on the back of his arm, top of his foot, calve, or, my personal favorite, the hollow between neck and collar bone. he never remembered me asking him to stop or leave. he was too high. he talked to things that werent there, all manner of stuff.
and he still had a house, job, life. this was just his dark under belly.
I even tried it, so i know the feeling first hand. but no feeling will EVER offset the ugliness of what i witnessed.

Legs
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Thank you for sharing that Legs.
See you are fortunate that you got out when you did, as it is my experience that one person almost ALWAYS drags the other right into the gutter with them. What you described is what they call a "functional addict", an addict who can have some form of life while maintaining and feeding a drug habit. They are very rare, but they do exist.


nvs
 
anyone struggeling with addiction has my support. i'd never really known what it could do! sure you hear about it, but to see someone you've known owned by something like that and watch it develop from rec to addiction....eye opening doesnt quite cover it.

Legs
 
I have a very addictive personality and thankfully I was able to recognize it and see others abuse and learned to stay far away from it at an early age. Having a father who was a cop helped a lot. I can't go to casino's anymore unfortunately because the pull is just to strong and I can feel the voice in my head just saying, "Well if I just use some of the rent money to win some more back..."

Luckily I was able to find positive things to become addicted to like this lifestyle and running etc. otherwise who knows where I'd be.
 
Well as mentioned earlier, addiction is a disease and not a character flaw or defect. If you look at the textbook definition of addiciton it would be: "a repetitive destructive BEHAVIOR" and the spectrum is very broad and ranges from obssessive compulsive behaviors such as washing your hands or brushing your teeth, to "shooting the moon" and "chasing the dragon". Eating disorders fall under this category as well. With a chemical addiciton however, it becomes more than just a mental dependancy, it becomes physical especially with opiate abuse as the withdrawals can be fatal and a constant supply must be provided to the addict to avoid the associated feelings. But the twist will come and it comes fast, and addicts find themselves trying to recapture that "first high". Very few really know that there is no such thing.

nvs
 
i too have a addictive personality and my big prob. is with me it is all or nothing in life. my drug abuse started with XTC, i took 4 the first time and knew i needed to find a way to get them cheap and not run out. That lead to Coke because i could do that during the day where the X was more of a weekend thing. Then i did METH thats when my life changed for the worst. It took me over almost the first time. I also had a good job a family, normal day to day life, but what people didnt know was i was snorting 2grams at work just to say awake because i hadnt went to sleep for week at a time i went from a BB at 236lb. to 187lb. This all took place in a 2 year span. Then i came home from work one day and i said i quit and i did that day. It was awfull i dreamed about doing almost every night. But i slowly stared working out again and got my life back together. I look back now a cant even belive it happened to me....
 
pincushion said:
i too have a addictive personality and my big prob. is with me it is all or nothing in life. my drug abuse started with XTC, i took 4 the first time and knew i needed to find a way to get them cheap and not run out. That lead to Coke because i could do that during the day where the X was more of a weekend thing. Then i did METH thats when my life changed for the worst. It took me over almost the first time. I also had a good job a family, normal day to day life, but what people didnt know was i was snorting 2grams at work just to say awake because i hadnt went to sleep for week at a time i went from a BB at 236lb. to 187lb. This all took place in a 2 year span. Then i came home from work one day and i said i quit and i did that day. It was awfull i dreamed about doing almost every night. But i slowly stared working out again and got my life back together. I look back now a cant even belive it happened to me....
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One day at a time buddy. Thanks for sharing!

nvs
 
I wasnt glorifying the drug but I understand your point NVS. Triggers can be set off just by describing the moment, the feeling or overall experience.

The fact is you become a slave to the drug. You are not yourself. You cant live to your potential. You lose yourself.

If anyone has a problem and would like to discuss it. My PM box is always open to anyone in need who maybe just needs to talk.

The best thing is to have support. Someone who can understand the hardships without criticism.

I pass no judgements. I know what it's like to be judged. I was lucky enough that my best friend was in the medical field and helped me through it.

The problem is more prevalant than most people think. People do a great job of hiding it. I did. I went to work, school and hit the gym......People thought I was living a healthy life.
 
DB006 said:
i was just in th ER for back spasms in in my upper back. so bad i couldn breath, move or anything. they couldnt do anything for me except for pain. and they gave dilaudid, and man there isnt anything like that feeling of warmness that comes over you whole body the min it hits your blood. i can see how you would be addicted. glad you beat it bro!!
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Exactly and imagine having an endless supply. I was doomed without knowing it. and thanks.......Beating it is one of my greatest and proudest achievments.
Im no longer a slave. I call the shots now. I live healthy. I eat healthy and most of all I associate with people who share those common values.....Such as you all here on the board.
 
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