ragintiger
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I was pretty pissed last nite but in a weird way I was encouraged. Ok heres my deal yall. For the last couple of years I was partying like crazy(tabs, blow,ect)..going to clubs all over the place..btw I live in a small town in louisiana I guess about 250k live here. Anyway, I got my shit together bc it was either that or go down the tubes like my friends were or make something of myself. Sooo, I got out of that scene and started being clean and doin good in school. I have been pretty hardcore in the gym for the last year bc theres not much to do here besides get fucked up, workout, go to church or school. Two of them I had eliminated so I decided I wanted to get back in shape like I was in my first couple of years of college. I have be reclusive towards just about all my old friends and habits bc I have found a new life in recovery and working out and being healthy. In this town is full of rednecks and its is only few that really maintain themselves year round. Its mostly beer belly, pot smoking guys around here. BUT, when summer comes around they all get juiced up and still drink and do drugs come a few months out from summer. Anyway, last nite one of my friends came over and got me to go eat bc he was in town for easter. I had agreed to go and when we went in the restarant and when i walked in it was all my old friends. Just about all of them had asked me what i was on as far as juice goes and where can they get some. Now before all this I was at 265 at around 20%bf..now Im at 227 around 11%.and only been "on" for 2 and half weeks. I have been working my ass off for the last year and when they saw me they automaticlly thought juice. Now here they are looking like shit with their t-shirts untucked and drinking beer like crazy and I walk in with my slacks and a tight cotton/spandix tee and get called baby gap wearer. I can take a joke but it got old after the first few times...I was only drinking water and they kept on pestering me about what I was on and what I was doing. Of course I told them just working out and watching what I eat. This one dude had said hes been working out for the past 2 weeks and ready to get some juice to jump start himself for the summer. lol..only thing I could do is laugh. I guess what Im venting about is when everyone was through with dinner someone came to me and said I shouldnt wear shit like I was bc it makes everyone else look like shit...? I was like WTF man? He said just bc im juicing doenst mean I have to show everyone up...and I should hide it till I get on the beach. And if I keep wearing shit like I did I would continue to get made fun of. Well..that shit didnt go over to well with me. I told him if he didnt like it to fuck off and he didnt have to look at me if didnt want to. Are yall starting to see why I dont hang out with these people anymore? Anyway I left bc I really didnt have a desire to sit and watch them just get obliterated and came home. At first I was pissed but then i thought of it and was sorta encouraged that people are starting to noticed all the hard work ive done. I dunno..maybe this doesnt make any sense but I wanted to talk to someone about it...bc I really dont many friends that are sober and try to keep their body in shape all the time. Only reason Im staying is bc im aunt pasted away and willed me her house and with it all bills paid in a fund of some sorts. Got a year left im probably going somewhere up north..Dunno where yet but ill know when i get there. Anyway..thanks for listening. Later,
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