Perseverance

I was thinking today about this. I had a bad day and having faith in something can be hard as well. The faith that no matter what if I am doing the right thing, and doing my best, things will turn out. Not just for competitors but just life in general. Life can be so stressful at least it is for me a lot. I remember last year before the Nationals I got shingles (ugh) and also had a torn miniscus but managed to pull it together compete and get 2nd lol. But that didn't even matter, it was the journey and the completion of my plans at that time. I stress a lot about what I am spending doing this. As you all know FBB don't pay squat but I have had a passion for so long and I know I am built for it. Just one of those days I guess, questioning my sanity and it is waaaaaaay to early in my diet to feel that way yet. I will lose my sanity soon enough LOL. It is nice having some of you gals/guys be so supportive cuz somedays I at least really need it. So I wonder how do you all persevere? I'm not getting a lot of people over here, hopefully that will change with more exposure for me this year. Any positive stories? Loved reading what little I did from Rep last night. I am very blessed and grateful for what I have in life but sometimes it's hard for me to keep that in the forefront.

I had a really poor outlook on life after my divorce before I met Silk. I really didn't give a shit about anything. I just figured if the next day came along I'd roll with it. It was a poor attitude, but the good Lord saw fit to give me Silk.
I could go on and on about the abuse and drug use of my father who was a drug addicted criminal father but that's neither here not there.
You are an incredibly strong person with amazing potential and dedication. Not to mention you're a fucking AWESOME person! I believe that truly good people are rewarded. Keep putting one foot in front of the other and you WILL achieve your dreams. You're already doing pretty well. Very few people have a relationship that works like you and Oldschool. The best is yet to come! Take it from the guy who was cool with things coming to an end should that be the case. Now I cherish every moment.

Awww Jenn...I don't need to tell you the kind of day I was having, YOU turned my rotten day into a good one so I owe ya one You are such a good person, a good friend. You were the one having the bad day, but put all that aside and you were there for me. I thank you for that. As far as you're feelings today, you told me once upon a time if this process is easy thn you're not doing something right. And if you're second guessing the money, well it's gotta go to something so it might as well go to something you (and your hubby) love. The Dude is right, you and Oldschool make it work and it's so touching to see how proud of you he is. You are a gift to many people, I'm sure Oldschool knows more than anyone, but that's how I see our friendship. You remember that when you're having tough days and question if this is all worth it cause it is..................this sounds like a hallmark card or something on the lifetime channel. Love ya girl

YOU have a goal your working toward Jenn! You have a reason to get up tomorrow, you have something that a lot of people lack. So many people I know wake up and wish Monday through Friday away just so they can sleep all weekend. Really???? Before they know it 2,3 or 10 years have passed and they have nothing to look back on and say to themselves "you know I remember when shit got bad and I made it through that just fine, I can make it through this." this shit makes you a mentally stronger person! If you can make it through a true contest prep and really suffer for weeks both mentally, and physically you can make it through anything this world throws at you. I know I am a MUCH stronger person now than I was before I started competing! Just stop to think of every single person you know, you work with, you see at the grocery store etc., how many of them would die to have your ambition, your self control, the motivation that you carry inside you??? This may be a shitty attitude to have but deep down I know that at the end of the day I am truly a stronger person than a lot of people I know simply because of the things this sport has taught me. Jenn when you start to doubt yourself stop and think about how many people in this world would kill to have your mindset. You are in the top 1% of the world when it comes to inner strength and determination!!! I'll stop rambling now, but I have more respect for competitors (pro or amat, male or female) such as yourself than I do any other athlete in the world! Keep at it Jenn!

Thanks everyone, I feel kind of a like an ass, didn't mean for this to be a lift Jenn up kinda thread (but I appreciate it ). Was just venting last night and had a shitty day and was stressed out. I could go on and on about my life there is a reason that I competed once in 2000 and not again until last year. Times get tough, and I am in a much better place now. Gotta keep that in mind and sometimes I forget. Hope everyone has a grea day!

Jenn I have this rather famous line from Rocky movie posted on my marquee board at my gym:

"But it ain't about how hard ya hit. It's about how hard you can get hit and keep moving forward. How much you can take and keep moving forward. That's how winning is done!"

Hope it helps

I have never been more motivated in all of my life when it comes to lifting and improving my physique than I am right now, and it's because of the people like you on this site! You and the other competitors here an insperation to us all! I don't belive that you know how fail nor will you accept failure of any kind otherwise you would've hung up last year when you didn't get your card. Instead of quitting or feeling sorry for youyself you came back with a vengeance, anyone that can do that can accomplish anything they set there mind to!

exbeanpole said:

I have never been more motivated in all of my life when it comes to lifting and improving my physique than I am right now, and it's because of the people like you on this site! You and the other competitors here an insperation to us all! I don't belive that you know how fail nor will you accept failure of any kind otherwise you would've hung up last year when you didn't get your card. Instead of quitting or feeling sorry for youyself you came back with a vengeance, anyone that can do that can accomplish anything they set there mind to!

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Couldn't have said it better!!!

I'm gonna go train like my life depends on it! Thanks you guys/and gals , good day today, Foreman grill broke, almost had a meltdown but held it together. You all are awesome