welcome, and not sure im reading this right or not, your only a year out of highschool? or did i read it wrong? also not sure what u mean by over the edge, but if your talking about steroids, then your far to yound to even consider them, unless your at least 24 or so i wouldnt even think about using any type of gear, and creatine does wonder with heavy weight and squatting your ass off will really help build a solid foundation.
How old are you? hows your diet and whats your training routine look like?