hopesanddreams
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Today, I had to go to the hospital, as I had a cist in my eye causing inflamation, and now I have steroid eye drops to take over the next week. I'm on tren + test now. Last week, I experienced 2 days of wipe out (extreme tiredness, to the point that I was having breakfast, and dozed off in my flat, and had to take sick leave). This is when I was on Dbol + Test (didn't have this effect before). 2 weeks before that, I had infections in the mouth (not caused by gear but I have a feeling gear aided it), leading to wisdom tooth removal. I was just on test at that time.
To be honest, the side effects when I was cycling 22-26 years old were non existent. But these past 2 years have been very rough. Extreme loss of libido. Not able to cum while banging hot chicks. The above medical issues. I have been having blood work, taking AI and what not to keep things under check, but every year I seem to get worse.
I am wondering if I should call quits on gear entirely and if it is even necessary for my goals.
Something like this look are my goals: 20 best Jessie Pavelka images on Pinterest | Hot men, Sexy men and Hot guys
I have diet restrictions e.g. don't eat meat/fish/chicken, which could mean my immune system is not as great already, and the steroids are just making things worse. I almost never look better after cycle than before, maybe a few kg gained on cycle, lost after, despite strength changing dramatically on cycle. Once off cycle, I've been told I look like I barely train, which to me means hormones are all over the place and I'm not cycling correctly (which is shocking given I've followed the advice of PT's and people off this forum 100%).
I am rather confused what is going on. I also got a new PT who I stuck with 3x a week, full 12 week cycle, blood work to prove the gear was good, stuck to the diet (although it was mostly processed stuff like whey powder etc), and got marginal changes.
Money is not an issue, but I feel like I'm splashing out cash, and getting nothing in return. My friend does cross-fit and look 100x better than me for example. So I am wondering if my body is just $hit and I need to do cross fit at home or something (resistance band workout + cardio), come completely off gear, eat only whole foods (which is going to be hard then to get the protein intake, but at least I will be off these shakes) and see what happens?
The problem is I'm 28 now, looking good is super important to me, and now is the time to look good also. So I feel the pressure to continue. But I don't know how to stop ending up in the same loop over and over again.
To be honest, the side effects when I was cycling 22-26 years old were non existent. But these past 2 years have been very rough. Extreme loss of libido. Not able to cum while banging hot chicks. The above medical issues. I have been having blood work, taking AI and what not to keep things under check, but every year I seem to get worse.
I am wondering if I should call quits on gear entirely and if it is even necessary for my goals.
Something like this look are my goals: 20 best Jessie Pavelka images on Pinterest | Hot men, Sexy men and Hot guys
I have diet restrictions e.g. don't eat meat/fish/chicken, which could mean my immune system is not as great already, and the steroids are just making things worse. I almost never look better after cycle than before, maybe a few kg gained on cycle, lost after, despite strength changing dramatically on cycle. Once off cycle, I've been told I look like I barely train, which to me means hormones are all over the place and I'm not cycling correctly (which is shocking given I've followed the advice of PT's and people off this forum 100%).
I am rather confused what is going on. I also got a new PT who I stuck with 3x a week, full 12 week cycle, blood work to prove the gear was good, stuck to the diet (although it was mostly processed stuff like whey powder etc), and got marginal changes.
Money is not an issue, but I feel like I'm splashing out cash, and getting nothing in return. My friend does cross-fit and look 100x better than me for example. So I am wondering if my body is just $hit and I need to do cross fit at home or something (resistance band workout + cardio), come completely off gear, eat only whole foods (which is going to be hard then to get the protein intake, but at least I will be off these shakes) and see what happens?
The problem is I'm 28 now, looking good is super important to me, and now is the time to look good also. So I feel the pressure to continue. But I don't know how to stop ending up in the same loop over and over again.
