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CybrSage's Log - from normal American to Fit and In Shape using PSL
I have been meaning to do this for some time and, frankly, just kept forgetting. I have a log on another forum that I started when I first began my initial cut, but I want it here as well. I will be slowly adding a few week's worth of entries every few days, so as not to blast the thread with too much info at one time, but not to take a huge amount of time putting it here either.
So to start:
Once upon a time, I was a scrawny teenager. Then I turned into a scrawny twenty-something. Good genetics meant I could eat anything I wanted, and as much as I wanted, and I still could not gain weight. I honestly tried and failed. Then I entered my 30s and the metabolism started slowing down. I started gaining weight and was actually happy about it. But it slowly kept coming and I slowly became less happy. During this entire time, I was an alcoholic as well. A high bottom drunk who only drank at home so as to never risk a DUI, but a drunk nonetheless. I became sober at the end of my 30s.
Sometime during my 30s I also started having my test levels drop, but I did not know it. When I became sober, things were amazing for a few years - the high of actually feeling life was more powerful than the rapidly dropping test levels could crush. But all euphoric things wear off, and so did this one. I found myself listless, lifeless, unable to sleep much, and completely apathetic about everything. I like to say I was so apathetic that I KNEW I was apathetic and frankly did not care.
Eventually, I saw a late night commercial about low test levels and realized it described me perfectly...even the part where the sexily dressed wife obviously comes onto the man wanting a romp in the sack and he shrugs her off. So I went to a doctor.
That began a long, drawn out, painful time where I fired a doctor and an endocrinologist for stupidity. I started on Androgel, which caused such horrific mental side effects I almost lost my wife (I am part of the lucky 1% who get them). I found a new GP (who is amazing) and he referred me to the urologist he personally sees. We then tried Axiron (urologist recommended injections but I was too much of a wuss), which caused me to instantly sweat. After 6 months we realized I was sweating out all the test it was trying to put in me. The doctor recommended injections again and I really had no other choice. Now I laugh at my fear and see it as silly.
The day after my first TRT shot, my leg (where I injected) felt like I was kicked by a mule. I frantically searched the Internet for it and found it was expected and normal for virgin muscles to have that reaction. Strike one for the urologist - he should have known that. While doing research on it, I found that most doctors have no clue about TRT. Since this is MY body, I feel it is MY responsibility to know everything I can about what I am doing to it. Thus began my entry into the AAS world.
I am confident I know FAR more than my urologist about TRT (he did not even request my E2 levels be checked), but I feel he is a keeper. Why? Well, without even blinking an eye, he will add anything to a blood test I ask him to add. He also considers 25% of every test bottle to be wasted, either through the seal failing or by being unable to pull it all out. Thus he over prescribes me test, something I will never complain about. My first blast was done with all prescription test that I stockpiled.
I hooked up with an Internet based personal trainer / nutritionist who started me on my first cut and my path towards being fit and in shape. I do not want to be a full on body builder - I lack the motivation for it (know your weakness), but gaining a great physique and becoming healthy are my goals.
Sorry if my intro was so long, I tend to get wordy. Later on, I will post the beginnings of my journey. :sport:
EDIT: Now that he is here as a sponsor, I can say it is none other than 3J himself who I am working with.
I have been meaning to do this for some time and, frankly, just kept forgetting. I have a log on another forum that I started when I first began my initial cut, but I want it here as well. I will be slowly adding a few week's worth of entries every few days, so as not to blast the thread with too much info at one time, but not to take a huge amount of time putting it here either.
So to start:
Once upon a time, I was a scrawny teenager. Then I turned into a scrawny twenty-something. Good genetics meant I could eat anything I wanted, and as much as I wanted, and I still could not gain weight. I honestly tried and failed. Then I entered my 30s and the metabolism started slowing down. I started gaining weight and was actually happy about it. But it slowly kept coming and I slowly became less happy. During this entire time, I was an alcoholic as well. A high bottom drunk who only drank at home so as to never risk a DUI, but a drunk nonetheless. I became sober at the end of my 30s.
Sometime during my 30s I also started having my test levels drop, but I did not know it. When I became sober, things were amazing for a few years - the high of actually feeling life was more powerful than the rapidly dropping test levels could crush. But all euphoric things wear off, and so did this one. I found myself listless, lifeless, unable to sleep much, and completely apathetic about everything. I like to say I was so apathetic that I KNEW I was apathetic and frankly did not care.
Eventually, I saw a late night commercial about low test levels and realized it described me perfectly...even the part where the sexily dressed wife obviously comes onto the man wanting a romp in the sack and he shrugs her off. So I went to a doctor.
That began a long, drawn out, painful time where I fired a doctor and an endocrinologist for stupidity. I started on Androgel, which caused such horrific mental side effects I almost lost my wife (I am part of the lucky 1% who get them). I found a new GP (who is amazing) and he referred me to the urologist he personally sees. We then tried Axiron (urologist recommended injections but I was too much of a wuss), which caused me to instantly sweat. After 6 months we realized I was sweating out all the test it was trying to put in me. The doctor recommended injections again and I really had no other choice. Now I laugh at my fear and see it as silly.
The day after my first TRT shot, my leg (where I injected) felt like I was kicked by a mule. I frantically searched the Internet for it and found it was expected and normal for virgin muscles to have that reaction. Strike one for the urologist - he should have known that. While doing research on it, I found that most doctors have no clue about TRT. Since this is MY body, I feel it is MY responsibility to know everything I can about what I am doing to it. Thus began my entry into the AAS world.
I am confident I know FAR more than my urologist about TRT (he did not even request my E2 levels be checked), but I feel he is a keeper. Why? Well, without even blinking an eye, he will add anything to a blood test I ask him to add. He also considers 25% of every test bottle to be wasted, either through the seal failing or by being unable to pull it all out. Thus he over prescribes me test, something I will never complain about. My first blast was done with all prescription test that I stockpiled.
I hooked up with an Internet based personal trainer / nutritionist who started me on my first cut and my path towards being fit and in shape. I do not want to be a full on body builder - I lack the motivation for it (know your weakness), but gaining a great physique and becoming healthy are my goals.
Sorry if my intro was so long, I tend to get wordy. Later on, I will post the beginnings of my journey. :sport:
EDIT: Now that he is here as a sponsor, I can say it is none other than 3J himself who I am working with.
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