Weird stuff.

Weird stuff.

No not you Al. LOL.

I work part time at a resturant. Latley this woman I dated, back when I was 18, has been showing up a lot. This girl was like the head cheerleader in school, no shit. When I asked her out I was surprised she said yes. We dated for a long time and I was really serious about her. I really thought that she was the one, we talked about our future and the whole ball. Then it ended, that fast, done. I went insane, pretty much nuts, and I have the scars to prove it. Treated peolpe like shit, never became depressed so to speak, but I did some things that I'm really not proud of. Anyway, I decided to start lifting to ease the pain. I know it sounds weird but it worked. I was really focused. I also bought a puching bag to take my aggression out on, it worked wonders. Kept me out of jail, I swear to God. Got over it, eventually got married, been married ten+ years, have two beautiful kids. Couldn't be happier. I try not to notice her when she comes in, she makes a point to say hello. She's married, sometimes comes in with her family. Most times not. Where am I going with this? Well I don't know. I'm not confused, I love my wife. I never ever cheat or betray anyone. It's not my nature, never could, I would literally die first. The fellings I get when I see her are beyond words. I guess my question is anyone get this weird shit? When I see her it's like a knife in the side. Hard to explain.

I know what you are talking about scorp there is always the one in everyones life. It's the strangest feeling you'll ever have totally unexplainable. It's not like anything would happen she or he just left a mark on your soul.

Yeah that's the best way to explain it, mark on my soul. I can't describe it any other way.

see we are two alike I know exactally what you are talking about the funny part about it it's just one peticular person some call it your first true love but I don't know if I belive that it's just a strange feeling that you get. Now you got me thinking about her next I'll be on classmates.com to see if she registrated yet LOL.

i started lifing too when my ex broke it off with me, i would live in the gym to take out all the anger, but now i realized that it was the best thing for me, cause without the gym, gym buddy's, everyone from musclechemistry, and the muscles, i dont know where my life would be right now.

bro, I'll tell you this, you won't be able to stop those thoughts so don't even try. It will only make you think harder about it. As long as you know where you are in your life right now, and how happy you are, then that is the only medication that you will need.

I don't know about the feeling of "the one that got away".....but a guy I used to hang out with every weekend for years is now dating my ex-girlfriend of 3 years.....she and I talked about marriage and all sorts of shit, and while I'm definitely glad I got away from her, I think it's kind of fucked up that she and my former buddy would've gotten together......weird shit I guess

Oh well, they're both coke/pot heads now so I guess they got who they deserved....lol

On the flip side of that, there's a girl I dated who lives in New York now I think and went to Towson University at the time that I can't stop thinking about......that relationship was over years ago and I still have the urge to track her down somehow all the time

What a knockout she was....don't know how I pulled that one off. She was into the bodybuilder type and I was probably tipping the scales at about 165 back then....hmmmmm, if she could only see me now

Hey Scorpio I had almost the same exact thing happen to me. I fell in love with the most beautiful, simple girl I ever knew. We dated for almost a year and then she dumped me. I lost it and started hitting the gym and unfourtunately other things. I finnaly got over her or so I thought untill I saw her in a restaurant while I was having dinner with my wife. All those feelings of love and anger came back. I told my wife who she was like it was no big deal but it was eating me up inside. When my wife went to the restroom she came up to me and asked if I would like to come over to her place one day. I had to say no because even though I to have never cheated on my wife I would not be able to controll myself with this girl. Now it has been two years since I have seen my ex and I still think about her. I hate it. I need to get her out of my mind. Oh well off to the gym I go......

Yikes, this seems to be going on for a lot of people. While it helps to know I'm not a nut-case (well, maybe I am) it doesn't bode well.
I have the same thing going on in my life with regard to my ex wife. She is the one I feel like I was meant to be with.
I'll see her again next week at a school reunion. I don't know if I am looking forward to it or not.
If there is a cure, I wish I knew what it was... maybe I'll find it when I go. I have a feeling this could test my mettle to the core.

Well I guess I'm sort of selfishly happy I'm not the only one that goes through this crap. Thanks guys, it's nice to talk about, certainly wouldn't discuss it with the wife. LOL, I hate the couch!

Bigshug still misses his New York ex-sweetie......

Her name was Celeste.......man, she was HOT

*sighs*

Scorpio

You should thank her (seriously) for helping to turn you into the excellent individual, family man and person that you are now!