test and deca cycle, loosing gains fast!

Im having this problem of not wanting to go workout anymore. I use to weigh 215lbs at 6' with around9-10% BF and now its like im just one big tube with muscle buried under it. Im 20 years old and i had 2 close friends die which took me off track and i just broke my hand about a month ago, so im loosing gains fast and gaining alot of fat. Ive got test250, d300, T3, and stennox. How do you think i should run those and what dosage a wk. Ive got 10cc bottles, and alot of t3 pills and stennox. One more question how should i diet im wanting to get that lean look back so what should i do on eating?
Its almost like i dont remember how i did it before.

Kurupt

how many bottles do you have?

Are you currently working out? Hows the hand? How are you eating now, just whatever?

might wanna get your mind right before you go off and do that cycle bro, i know its gotta be hard, and im sorry to hear about your friends, but ide get your diet right, and work right, do that for awhile, clear your head some more, then bust that cycle out at 100%, but thats my opinion, good luck with it man

Bump...get your stuff put together before headin with this cycle......I think this bros here know what they are talkin about....