Hi guys. This has nothing to do with bodybuilding.
For those of you that pray, I could use some prayer. My mother has abused me and my brother since...well...since day one. She, unfortunately always hated us.
Now, my father, who has been my best friend for years is getting more mental abuse than before from her. When it was just me and my brother we could handle it. Now it's bothering me and I am starting to hate her.
And every Christmas I remember the same horrible memmories. My mom going back into the mall to tell Santa I was a bad little girl this year and coal would be too kind.
My mother was careful never to do things to my brother and I in front of my father, but sometimes she slipped. My brother pushed her against the wall when I was 6 (him 14) and she called the police on him. It was okay for her to hit us, but not okay for us to defend ourselves.
My father couldn't leave her and take us kids, because she always told him she would keep us and hurt us. She would always tell me when they had a fight, "...Daddy and I are going to get a divorce and I just want you to know it's all your fault". She would say it so sweetly...I think those are the only times she talked kindly to me even though the words were horrible.
My brother was able to leave and always felt bad about leaving me behind, but I don't blame him. Now, my mother is treating my father almost as bad as she treated us kids. And my mother is telling me how her boy is so special and what he means to her. She is treating him really good over the phone (he left the state a long time ago). And I don't want to tell my brother, but I'm jealous. I liked it better when she hated us both equally.
Now, it's not her fault. She was abused as a kid and she can be really nice, but she flips. It's like she has a split personality. I use to pray for her and my family to accept her even though she can be cruel. But now I am finding myself in need of these prayers. If you are a believer, please pray that I accept my mother and not hate her for what she does or who she is. It really is not her fault, but sometimes it's hard not to be angry with her.
Thank you very much!!
For those of you that pray, I could use some prayer. My mother has abused me and my brother since...well...since day one. She, unfortunately always hated us.
Now, my father, who has been my best friend for years is getting more mental abuse than before from her. When it was just me and my brother we could handle it. Now it's bothering me and I am starting to hate her.
And every Christmas I remember the same horrible memmories. My mom going back into the mall to tell Santa I was a bad little girl this year and coal would be too kind.
My mother was careful never to do things to my brother and I in front of my father, but sometimes she slipped. My brother pushed her against the wall when I was 6 (him 14) and she called the police on him. It was okay for her to hit us, but not okay for us to defend ourselves.
My father couldn't leave her and take us kids, because she always told him she would keep us and hurt us. She would always tell me when they had a fight, "...Daddy and I are going to get a divorce and I just want you to know it's all your fault". She would say it so sweetly...I think those are the only times she talked kindly to me even though the words were horrible.
My brother was able to leave and always felt bad about leaving me behind, but I don't blame him. Now, my mother is treating my father almost as bad as she treated us kids. And my mother is telling me how her boy is so special and what he means to her. She is treating him really good over the phone (he left the state a long time ago). And I don't want to tell my brother, but I'm jealous. I liked it better when she hated us both equally.
Now, it's not her fault. She was abused as a kid and she can be really nice, but she flips. It's like she has a split personality. I use to pray for her and my family to accept her even though she can be cruel. But now I am finding myself in need of these prayers. If you are a believer, please pray that I accept my mother and not hate her for what she does or who she is. It really is not her fault, but sometimes it's hard not to be angry with her.
Thank you very much!!