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Badgermoon
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I have a goal, and I'm taking some advise from WeirdAl, and going public with it right here and now.
two weeks ago, I finished my cycle. When I was done, I was up to 250 or so. My last pics were shot at about 240. Some of the weight of course was water and fat. I began trying to lose the fat and keep my gains. I need to get the diet better still, but my workouts have not lost any intensity. My strength is a little less in some areas and the same in other exercises. In fact, I am driving myself as hard as I can. I plan on posting pics in 2 weeks, which will be 2 months from the last ones (if I can find the socks I was wearing). I am currently at 242 as of today. I think I look leaner than I did at 240, even before that. I was 241 yesterday, so I hope that the weight has stableized, and I can look ok as the fat comes off. I lost 9 lbs in just over a week (some water for sure) and I think I have time to slow that down and still make my goal.
Heres the deal.
In 5 weeks, I am going to go to a reunion where my ex wife and a gf that I haven't seen since I was 15 and she dumped my ass will be also. I haven't seen the ex for 1 1/2 years since our seperation and divorce last June. Last time she saw me I had wasted to 215 from the stress and depression. I was a physical and emotional train wreck. Now I don't expect either of them to fall all over me. I don't think the muscle will do anything for the ex anyway. It would be nice to have them see the new me and regret thinking that I wasn't worth their time, but I'll be happy if I can just feel good about the way I look and not hate to take off my shirt to go for a swim at the hotel where this is all taking place. having grown up a SKINNY mo-fo, and some other shit, I have been struggling with a bad case of low self esteem all along, but that has started to melt away. I have a long way to go to recovery, but I'm working on it. It would just be nice to have this chance to not hate the way I look when I go there.
I am determined to keep my gains, and even improove, as well as get my bf to a place where I'll look good. I want to feel good and look good, and let them see what they threw away. This means that I am going to have to beat the odds that a 51 year old can't get fit, and stay that way, and improove.
This might all be a shallow way to think, and if it's petty, then I'll wear it. But it means something to me, and I am by-god determined to do this. I will, under no fucking circumstances, go quietly into the night.
Ok, I'm done for now. I've said it, and I intend to back it up. If I don't, I want you guys to beat the shit out of me.
two weeks ago, I finished my cycle. When I was done, I was up to 250 or so. My last pics were shot at about 240. Some of the weight of course was water and fat. I began trying to lose the fat and keep my gains. I need to get the diet better still, but my workouts have not lost any intensity. My strength is a little less in some areas and the same in other exercises. In fact, I am driving myself as hard as I can. I plan on posting pics in 2 weeks, which will be 2 months from the last ones (if I can find the socks I was wearing). I am currently at 242 as of today. I think I look leaner than I did at 240, even before that. I was 241 yesterday, so I hope that the weight has stableized, and I can look ok as the fat comes off. I lost 9 lbs in just over a week (some water for sure) and I think I have time to slow that down and still make my goal.
Heres the deal.
In 5 weeks, I am going to go to a reunion where my ex wife and a gf that I haven't seen since I was 15 and she dumped my ass will be also. I haven't seen the ex for 1 1/2 years since our seperation and divorce last June. Last time she saw me I had wasted to 215 from the stress and depression. I was a physical and emotional train wreck. Now I don't expect either of them to fall all over me. I don't think the muscle will do anything for the ex anyway. It would be nice to have them see the new me and regret thinking that I wasn't worth their time, but I'll be happy if I can just feel good about the way I look and not hate to take off my shirt to go for a swim at the hotel where this is all taking place. having grown up a SKINNY mo-fo, and some other shit, I have been struggling with a bad case of low self esteem all along, but that has started to melt away. I have a long way to go to recovery, but I'm working on it. It would just be nice to have this chance to not hate the way I look when I go there.
I am determined to keep my gains, and even improove, as well as get my bf to a place where I'll look good. I want to feel good and look good, and let them see what they threw away. This means that I am going to have to beat the odds that a 51 year old can't get fit, and stay that way, and improove.
This might all be a shallow way to think, and if it's petty, then I'll wear it. But it means something to me, and I am by-god determined to do this. I will, under no fucking circumstances, go quietly into the night.
Ok, I'm done for now. I've said it, and I intend to back it up. If I don't, I want you guys to beat the shit out of me.