I totally get it man.
I take some pretty serious stuff for my anxiety issues. I actually take a pretty big dose of the atypical anti-psychotic Risperdal (risperidone) at night to help me go to sleep and to slow down brain activity to help prevent panic attacks.
Out of the 3 times I tried weed, the time that had the biggest impact was when I ate it right before bed. I had a small corner of a brownie, and the effects were noticeable in that case. I slept really hard and felt well rested the next morning.
I'd love to replace risperdal, which can fuck up the liver and organs, for edibles, but I'm kind of nervous about doing that. And, like I said, I still may need to get a security clearance, and that would disqualify me outright for that.