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WeirdAl
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Ok, this started dominating all the other threads I was posting in, so I figured I'd just start one of it's own.
Yeah, I'm at the end of my 9th week of my cycle, and have had sex a grand total of 1 time! Pretty frustrating... especially considering that for over a month prior to my cycle, I had very little interest in sex, and for the 8 weeks prior to that, I was on 200mg of cyp every other week, which had my test levels roller-coastering, and prior to that, my levels were low too.
My wife and I have been having some sort of marriage problems for awhile, mostly I didn't really notice that they were more than temporary things... She'd be mad at me, or we'd have (usually) a pretty minor fight, and then things would be fine. The no sex when I really was in the mood thing kind of drove the problems home.
We're actually going to a counselor now (we both decided to), and we've talked quite a bit about stuff... She's under a lot of pressure right now as she's working full time and taking 8 hours of really difficult classes... She really wants to go to medical school, and so is really pressuring herself to get incredible grades and stuff. We have 2 kids, etc. We were already planning on her going back to school full time in the fall, and either not working at all, or only working part time. Her current job sucks in just about every way, and she is completely bored there. I've told her she needs to quit, but for some reason she won't. She finally took a month leave of absence today (till the end of finals for the semester), so hopefully that aspect will improve some.
As we talk, and as we see the counselor, things do seem to get better, but still no sex, which is incredibly frustrating. The worst part is that she tells me she has no interest, yet I know for a fact that she's been "playing by herself". It took me awhile to talk to her about that, because as I realized it, I really started paying attention to signs that it was happening and felt like I was spying on her, etc. Anyway, it's hard for me, as a guy, to understand how if you aren't interested in sex, you can still be interested in masturbation. And of course, knowing that she is doing that had me thinking she might actually want to do something with me, which had me not want to masturbate myself, just in case she wanted to do something. I wasn't sleeping very well, wanting to be "available" just in case, etc. I think most of that is cleared up, and I'm trying my hardest to give her space now, and not interupt any by herself time, or whatever.
Anyway, that's basically my story in a nutshell. I am feeling a little better about things, just really frustrated knowing that my cycle is ending soon, as probably will my sex drive (unless my natural levels somehow improve with the post-cycle therapy to above what they were beofe my cycle), which is doubtfull to me since I'll be cutting.
Anyway, thanks for all the kind words from everyone!
Yeah, I'm at the end of my 9th week of my cycle, and have had sex a grand total of 1 time! Pretty frustrating... especially considering that for over a month prior to my cycle, I had very little interest in sex, and for the 8 weeks prior to that, I was on 200mg of cyp every other week, which had my test levels roller-coastering, and prior to that, my levels were low too.
My wife and I have been having some sort of marriage problems for awhile, mostly I didn't really notice that they were more than temporary things... She'd be mad at me, or we'd have (usually) a pretty minor fight, and then things would be fine. The no sex when I really was in the mood thing kind of drove the problems home.
We're actually going to a counselor now (we both decided to), and we've talked quite a bit about stuff... She's under a lot of pressure right now as she's working full time and taking 8 hours of really difficult classes... She really wants to go to medical school, and so is really pressuring herself to get incredible grades and stuff. We have 2 kids, etc. We were already planning on her going back to school full time in the fall, and either not working at all, or only working part time. Her current job sucks in just about every way, and she is completely bored there. I've told her she needs to quit, but for some reason she won't. She finally took a month leave of absence today (till the end of finals for the semester), so hopefully that aspect will improve some.
As we talk, and as we see the counselor, things do seem to get better, but still no sex, which is incredibly frustrating. The worst part is that she tells me she has no interest, yet I know for a fact that she's been "playing by herself". It took me awhile to talk to her about that, because as I realized it, I really started paying attention to signs that it was happening and felt like I was spying on her, etc. Anyway, it's hard for me, as a guy, to understand how if you aren't interested in sex, you can still be interested in masturbation. And of course, knowing that she is doing that had me thinking she might actually want to do something with me, which had me not want to masturbate myself, just in case she wanted to do something. I wasn't sleeping very well, wanting to be "available" just in case, etc. I think most of that is cleared up, and I'm trying my hardest to give her space now, and not interupt any by herself time, or whatever.
Anyway, that's basically my story in a nutshell. I am feeling a little better about things, just really frustrated knowing that my cycle is ending soon, as probably will my sex drive (unless my natural levels somehow improve with the post-cycle therapy to above what they were beofe my cycle), which is doubtfull to me since I'll be cutting.
Anyway, thanks for all the kind words from everyone!