i love it when im on, i love to train hard and to get a big as posible my aditude about everthing is better, my wife likes it better when im getting bigger for i while untill i get to tense..she helps me with all of my food at night and for the next day at work. she just dont like me competing not sure why i think is the money, $4000. for my last show but prices were little higher then, but when im off i hate my self for the way i look and i get depesed and dont even want to go to the gym because i feel smaller and i hate when somebody says hay bud you losing weight i want to throw a dumbell threw the back of there head well thats enough about me talk later........