This is personal, but I kinda need to share. Any body from the program here?

[Eat'n Big]

Dear Members,

I know the topic that I'm about to share is touchy for some, and maybe even for this forum.
I have been in the program with AA for sometime now, as it has been a family issue with many for years, and even before me.
I never had an issue with drugs, nor has it ever been a part of my life. I have battled tho with alcohol most my adult life. Sometimes are harder then others, and sometimes things are a breeze.
I find myself really having some head issues with my recovery anymore, and find the battle to get harder as time goes on. Not really the fact of wanting to drink, as I lost the complete desire to , but moreless the thinking process that I have and my judgment calls on situations.

Does anyone else here belong to the program? What are somethings that you do on your hard days, and in the times that are difficult?

I do pick up the phone and make calls, I do attend meetings, and with some guys from my gym too, but at times I feel this isn't enough.

I even done spiritual retreats, they are amazing, but I think it's time for an other.....

Any feed back would be great guys thanks!

 

[Ox 51]

Thanks for sharing, Eat'n. That's what I love about this board, people are open and willing to help each other. I hope you find some good advice here. Keep up the fight.

 

[dreww]

Bump up. Im from a family of current and ex alcoholics and I know it is a lifelong fight.

 

[big in vegas]

I've never been in AA, but I have been in NA in the past. Never really had a problem, but thought that it could only do me good as I was getting way overboard and stopped cold turkey when I realized how badly I was starting to look. I have been sober for a few years now and know that at times it's hard to refrain, but knowing that I feel great everyday and never have a bad day anymore that is enough for me to stay away.

 

[mcgaret]

Good to reach out. I dont really count my time but I have around 17years and 10 1/2 months. (lol) I have had hard times like that and
I just kept getting up every day and put one foot in front of the other and did what I knew I had to. (work, meetings. ect.)
It was when things were getting bleak and it looked like I wasent going anywhere, I just kept going through the motions. It was
always after that it seemed like I would have a big change in my life. You know they say 'things dont happen till your ready for them'.
I would suggest to just keep doing what your doing and you should get past this hard time. Just my experience.