how old are you bro?
lots of potential brotha, why dont you jump on a 16 week lean bulker bro. jump that body weight up to 215, you can do it right bro, clean carbs clean protein, no salt no sugar, that will be some good weight to put on.
i know you say you dont want to be that big, but you get that big and you'll love it.
you'll look harder and fuller