To be honest, get off the 4 square meal idea/theory... And get more food in you, brake up your intake to smaller portions, but more daily consumption/intake over all. No joke, write down your intake now, chart things out, likes cals, protiens, and carb intake. Then start your new diet like I suggested, and right down the specs of the food like also suggested here, and compare. This way you can measure your intake, and adjust it where it needs to be. Keeping notes really helps with progress.
Also, add shakes/gainers/protein drinks between meals a well.
You can get more then you ever need from eating. Proper Food intake, given the right circumstances and situation can/will be responsible for growth, mental health and state of well being, healthy complexion, and even a healthy libido, no joke. Get diet in check and add the shake supps, and some vitamins and take it from there, given your training and rest is adequate enough.
Just gear away from pro-hormones, you'll get what you need with the suggestion given above!